Emotional roller coaster

Hi world- this is a catch up but more of an ode to regret. So we returned from Peru and got into the final preparations for Kevin’s daughters wedding. Well prior to that her mother falls and breaks her hip. My entire relationship has revolved around some drama. Me feeling bad for. Not wanting to experience this wedding with my husbands ex and me actually experiencing it with other people. It’s weird but people are celebrating people because they had sex and reproduced. They disregard the reason these people divorced. At dinner with his friend and ge is romanticizing the places they lived and Gus marriage and having children... I guess I have regrets and resentment. I’m not sure why but this past relationship is always in my face... it wasn’t good yet people can’t move on.